Last night was my first attendance for this new and our last semester in our course....hopefully . We met our professor in Management of SSIs (Small-Scale Industries) subject. He look very ordinary man but he impressed me when he introduced to us his self and gave us some of his background, accomplishments and achievements. His goal for his teaching career pursuaded me to teach also someday and impart my knowledge to others.

During the past semesters, I have been laxed with my studies and got some not so good impression with our professors. But I had this feeling that this time I will do good, be more responsible and compliant. I'm just thankful that even I have been easygoing with my previous subjects, I got good grades though. (Thank God!)

Working and studying is not really that easy. After going through this routine for more than a year now, I have realized that working and studying is indeed not just a mind struggle but two important job you have to juggle. 

Time comes specially when I'm alone, thinking if am I still on the right track or still doing the right thing. I know it's always nice to have friends and keep friend. But is it still right if the person you not trying to lose your friendship with is the one who hurted you in some ways?

After all the confrontations, revelations and explanations through email, he wants to keep our friendship. He don't want to lose me he said and it took me some time to think about it.

The day before his flight going here in Manila, I texted him wishing him a safe trip and that's the start of our second round of friendship.

I have meet up with him twice since he arrived on May 24. Of course with his fiance. The last time was yesterday with his parents who arrived yesterday also for his wedding on Saturday.

...and might meet him again before he go back to UK on the 22nd.

Well...it's always nice to have friends and keep them.

This would be my first entry straight from my room using my very own laptop and not my very own neighbhor's wifi . I bought this not branded but nice specs notebook last week with the help of a very nice friend who helped me from letting me decide what to buy and how would I able to buy this stuff. To list few specs, here are some that I could remember:

512 Mb RAM, centrino dou processor, 80G memory, wifi ready, built-in webcam, DVD/RW ROM, 14.1" screen, 2.3 kgs...at a very reasonable price...not bad i guess.

I've been enjoying this new tech gadget for how many days so far but not really today for I've been sick since yesterday. I got high fever, cough and flu. I know I should be getting some rest but I've been sleeping the whole day and it makes me feel more dizzy. Tomorrow, I'm plannng to see a doctor for a medical chekup if my fever hasn't gone yet.

I know I only have 4 hours to review for my final exam tonight. I worked halfday so I could read but instead of reviewing, I'm here at the cafe writing in my journal. I can feel my eyes are swollen because I have been reading book yesterday and maybe overslept last night. After how many consecutive days of 4 hours sleep, I had almost 7 hours last night!

Last Saturday, I booked my plane ticket for Boracay. Yea, I'm going there with my classmates in September and I'm so already excited for that 4 days vacation. Aside from that It's been my dream going to that famous beach, I'll have a break...time to unwind and treat myself. I have been busy with work, school and now a new sideline as a wedding planner. Life is really so exciting and unpredictable!

How about you? How's life treating you?

Hours has passed but I seem have accomplished no task.

I'm currently copying all my files for backup 'coz my PC needs to be reformatted. It's taking me a lot of time coz I got lots and lots of files which are really important for my project and I hate it. I'm handling a project with such a big reponsibility and I don't even think I will be able to handle it well but I'm trying. I want to give up but I can't find someone who will take over. Besides, I have committed until November this year. Ahhh...6 more months! I'm planning to talk to my boss but I'm sure she would not allow me unless somebody would take charge and I'm not sure if my contract can be terminated. But how I wish it could be...please...! I want to go back to programming.

I'm actually not in the mood of posting an entry right now because I don't know what should I say or how to start telling what I feel. I have this random thoughts and still have lots of questions.

On my way home last night, after my class, I was so undecided if I would check my email or not. I know I asked him not to reply but I have this feeling he would but what's the sense and what does he has to say? I know he would only tell me how special am I to him and I hate hearing because there's no sense at all!

...finally, I had decided to check. I would to read it anyway regardless of when would I open my email and at least I would know early if he has something good to say. But no, i'm not hoping his decision will change.

...and I was right he replied telling me how my email and text messages made him smile. Yea, right! I know the card I sent during your birthday was great! It's one of a kind coz it was personally made which I used to give to my other friends also during their birthdays. But I agree, it is really special because I have to send it via airmail. But again, what's the sense of saying you have not received a card like that in your life?

...I hope you just explained to me why you decided to marry your 'special friend' who you do not love.

I arrived at exactly 7:48AM in the office. Turned on my PC and the aircondition. Pulled the curtain up and saw a nice morning view of 'the fort' from my floor here at the 14th. I always feel a bit relaxed seeing the outside view from my window. It seem peaceful and quiet. Maybe that's why Tats my Japanese seatmate would always wanted that curtain up until in the afternoon. I had the tasks that i'm going to do today. I had planned it last night. Things seem ok eventhough I still have this feeling of sadness because of what happened to me and my 'special friend'. I sent my last email to him last night telling how feel that moment and asked him not to reply anymore. I have deleted all his messages in my phone because it would only remind me of him and there's no worth of keeping them. Besides, it freed up my phone's memory and can keep more nice messages from my other friends. And speaking of my phone, I accidentally left it home!

Finally, yesterday he emailed me that he's getting married. Yea, THEY'RE getting married in June...He and his "special friend"... and he want me to be there...duh! hmmm...let me think about that...can I?

From being new friends to friends and "special friends"...after 6 months...it's over.

Yep, we became "special friends" as well...

You came here last year to know more about your "special friend" but it turned out a mess as you said. You told me that you have no feelings for her...and you can't return her love because of the language barrier that causes a day for the two of you to end up arguing. I told you that if you really love her, you will find a way to resolve that problem and thanks for taking my advice!

It was rainy bad Wednesday morning when I can't get a cab going to my work. I'm already late so I decided to work half day. I'm going to the office in the afternoon and instead of going home, I went to the mall to kill time. I planned to watch movie but found myself infront of the computer shop waiting to open. I was sitting on a bench when you came. I was hoping that nobody would sit beside me because I was drying my feet but you sit at the other end of the bench. I asked the lady (in my language) what time would the computer shop would open. Because you did not understand you asked me about what I said and that's how we became new friends. Thanks for treating me a drink while we were waiting for the shop to open. I could not forget the man who asked you if I were your wife!

You went to Bicol with your special friend and wished you have not come.

After you had returned in Manila. We met for the second time but not that strangers anymore...we're already friends! You actually dropped by in my office the day before you fly back to your home.

You went back to UK and asked me to keep in touch through text message, email or chat with please please and so I did and we became special friends...

...and now you're getting married to your other "special friend"...

My friend visited us in the office with her mom who arrived from UK a week ago. She introduced me   and tell that I also have a friend there. Another friend of mine gave a side comment that my friend there is my lover. Then her mom asked where in UK does my boyfriend live. Hahaha I said that he's just my friend